To say I’ve been busy lately would be a gross understatement. Since staying home my schedule has become scary full. Besides keeping up with this website I am in school full-time, studying for the GRE, applying to MPP Programs (then to my PhD), doing a political affairs internship and seeing various doctors between Alex and I. It has been insane.
However, this insanity is different then the insanity that was my former job. Everything I’m doing is helping me reach a larger goal. Everything is calculated and planned so Alex and I can have the best possible future. Unlike my former job the stress did not seem worth it to me. I think that’s the biggest difference. I’m happy busy now.
Now I’m not sure if busy if the new happy but I am sure that being busy is making me happy. I would not say that busy replaces other things in terms of my happiness. But working with a purpose, stressing myself out for a purpose, seeing an end result, that is happiness I suppose.
This week I have been shown how incredibly lucky I am to have the friends I have. This week I had the pleasure of being visited by multiple friends. This is far from a common occurrence, especially since we moved two hours away from home.
Thursday, my girlfriend tells me she’s in Allentown and asked if she could stop by on her way home. Obviously, I said yes! I hadn’t seen her since August. Far too long to go without seeing her. I was so excited to just catch up with someone I had grown up with and someone who shared the values I do. It was so refreshing. I was so thankful to spend time with someone who has been nothing but supportive and wonderful.
Saturday, my two best friends came for the weekend. It was like being a little girl all
The best girls <3
over again. We shared secrets, did each other’s hair and makeup, helped pick out outfits, etc. I got to curl up on the couch and watch Hocus Pocus. It was so amazing to just laugh and enjoy being with those I love.
My poor husband has recently had to endure me rewatching the Gilmore Girls, which I’ve seen the series a few times. He said he liked it, but I’m sure that’s just him being a good husband. He does the same thing with Gossip Girl, which I’ve seen the series multiple times too. More on Gossip Girl at a later date.
However, I absolutely loved Gilmore Girls and more importantly I loved Rory. I could understand Rory. She was the committed relationship type, the writer, the reader, naive but of the world all at once. She was a strict planner. She knew exactly what she wanted and how she would get there. And that I understood about her (and Paris).
This past Sunday in Relief Society, we were discussing pride and how truly harmful this is. Sometimes a talk hits you harder than others and this was one of those talks.
Now, we all know I’m Type A. I am extremely self-aware in this aspect. Buzzfeed recently posted an article titled, “28 Problems Every Type-A Person Will Understand.” I’ll skip to some of the most relevant points to this post.
The desire for competition and to win is insatiable in me. My husband can absolutely attest to this. Now, it’s not completely intentional. It’s just who I am.
Today, at work, I got a lot of questions as to how Alex and I can afford for me to stay home. Without delving into our current financial situation, I said it was pretty simple considering the work I do at home to make sure costs are low.